An article came out this week in the NY Times that was titled “The New Sobriety,” in which the subheading “every one is sober now, even if they drink a little?,” took on a life of it’s own, negatively impacting the views of the article. While I do think the article and it’s attention is a net positive, I also … Read More
How I Went From Cocaine Comedowns, Anxiety & Alcoholism To A Sober Life I Love
I can remember the time when my Saturday afternoons were filled with day drinking at the pool to nurse the cocaine comedown I had just come off of. Friday’s were for happy hours that turned into sunrise, so naturally Saturday became an extension of the party. After getting a couple hours of bird chirping, soul sucking, halfway sleeping but more … Read More
Dear Alcohol, This Is Goodbye.
Oh dear “friend” Alcohol, what a long, weary road we have traveled together… When I first met you at the ripe age of 15, I had no idea what an impact you would make on my life – and not the good kind, unfortunately. I hate to tell you, but no one starts out their relationship to you with the … Read More
8.5 Years Sober Today Reminds Me Of What’s Possible
Exactly 8.5 years ago today I made a decision to quit drinking and using cocaine. I was sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. I didn’t want to experience the anxiety, panic, shame, guilt, exhaustion, defeat or self loathing for one minute longer. I prayed for a miracle that day – not knowing what I was doing and not … Read More
Seeing Things With New Eyes
Last weekend I shared a post on my Instagram, and it was a very powerful and shifting realization for me. So, I figured I should share it here with you as well. As I was sitting in my backyard, early on Saturday morning, I was enjoying my homemade BulletProof coffee with my dog, Elly, and I ironically found myself enjoying … Read More
For Anyone Trying To Change Their Life
I remember when I was coming into sobriety how many times I said, “I’m never drinking again,” or “I’m never doing coke again,” only to be greeted with another comedown and hangover. Each time I would fall back into my bad habits, I would stand back up, bruises and all. I’d say it was because of this or that, without … Read More
One of My Biggest Ah-ha Moments in Early Sobriety
I quit drinking and ended my love affair with cocaine on August 17th, 2008. Wouldn’t you know, my best friend’s birthday fell just three short weeks later on 9/11? (Yes, I know it’s not a fun date for a birthday, bless her heart) We had quite an extravaganza planned for it. There was no way I could miss it and … Read More
One Practice That Has Kept Me Sober
When I got sober in 2008, it was hard to rebuild my life at first. Killing bad habits and adjusting your life around the avoidance of them isn’t easy. It is a daily effort in making all the correct choices and no longer allowing the addictions to run your brain. Getting sober is hard work but once you’ve made it … Read More
Never Give Up On Your Dreams
I visited San Diego for the first time in 2005 and absolutely loved it. I remember driving around La Jolla looking at the houses for sale with an inquiring mind as to if I could live here, one day. At the time everything seemed so expensive, which made this dream become one of those off in the distant ones. So, … Read More
Be Strong, You Never Know Who You Are Inspiring
I took a yoga class last night and the teacher spoke about resilience. What an elegant word that I had not heard in quite some time, packed with a meaning that seemed to knock right on the doors of my heart in such a timely fashion. Resilience is the ability to bounce back or return to our natural state. It’s … Read More